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Diagnosis

This is just a brief post about my health; I’ll be back to books soon. I just finished Boswell’s Presumptuous Task and would like to write about it — it’s a wonderful book.

But for now — today I learned I don’t have Lyme disease; instead it’s the thyroid problem that was the other alternative my doctor offered. Now that I know the diagnosis, I can see it makes sense. I didn’t have the aches and pains or the headache that are common with Lyme. Mostly what I had was a fast heart rate and some fatigue, which is what you’d find with hyperthyroidism. So now I go to the endocrinologist to find out what kind of hyperthyroidism I have, and then probably I’ll go on medication. My doctor gave me a beta-blocker to keep my heart rate lower until I get a firm diagnosis and a treatment plan.  I can feel my heart slowing down already.

I went to watch Hobgoblin ride in his race tonight; once again I was longing to be in the pack. In spite of my envy of those healthy riders, I had fun watching the race, and Hobgoblin and I hung out for quite a long time afterward talking to people, many of whom asked how I’m doing and offered a lot of sympathy.

I’m not sure when I’ll ride again, but it may be soon; lately I’ve been too sick to even think of getting out there, but it may not be too long until I’m ready to venture out again.

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Interview meme

The wonderful Litlove has agreed to interview me — thank you! So here it is:

1. I love the way you write about the 18th century; it’s clear how much you appreciate that era. Can you put your finger on what it is about that age of literature that attracts you to it so much? Thank you! I made it through college without taking a course in the 18C and so got to grad school knowing little about it, except for a few things I read in surveys which didn’t interest me. But in grad school I needed a course in the area, and signed up for one called “Women and the Novel,” which covered the 18C century, plus a little bit of the 19C. We read The Princess of Cleves, Moll Flanders, Pamela, The Female Quixote, A Simple Story, Pride and Prejudice and others. I was captivated. I took another 18C novel course the next semester and liked it so much I decided to specialize in the area. So it’s really the novel that pulled me in; I love studying the beginning of the genre — what people wrote when a definition and theoretical understanding of the novel didn’t exist. The 18C feels like the beginning of a lot of things — the novel, biographies, newspapers, the ability of more and more people to make a living writing, contemporary ways of understanding the family, psychological ways of thinking, modern economic structures, and I could go on.

2. I feel I’ve learned so much about bike racing from your site. What made you take up the sport in the first place? Hobgoblin has a lot to with it — he’s the one who encouraged me to begin riding, and the one who picked out my first bike (my first adult bike, that is — I rode around the neighborhood a bit as a child). I got that bike in January, 2000, and I remember taking it out to the parking lot of the school where we taught at the time, which was a safe place where I could get used to being on a bike again away from traffic. It didn’t take me long to pick it up, and I rode regularly from then on, eventually joining a cycling club and going on training rides with a group a couple times a week. Cycling suits me, I think; in high school I was a runner, and I liked the training and the endurance work, but I couldn’t motivate myself to run without a coach making me do it. For me, cycling is more fun than running, so I don’t have to work as hard to get myself outside for a ride. As for what made me move from being a recreational rider to a racer: I got tired of being a spectator at races. It seemed to me that too often it was the men riding and the women watching, and I was annoyed to be such a stereotype. And since I was spending a lot of time at races already, I thought it wouldn’t be a big deal to join in.

3. You’ve changed jobs not so long ago. Tell us what your average day at work is like now, and are you pleased you made the change? I’ve had two different jobs in the last year, but they are similar jobs at similar schools, so the real difference for me was leaving an administrative job last summer to move into the faculty positions I’ve had this year. I am very pleased I made the change. Working as an administrator was okay, and I was able to do some teaching in that job too, but I’m much happier focusing solely on teaching. I know this is a little self-indulgent of me, but I chafe at having to be in the office when there is no work to do, which is what happened in my administrative job. As a faculty member, as long as I show up for class and meetings, I can do my prep work and grading wherever and whenever I please. So — a typical day: I’ve been teaching in the mornings and, unless I have an afternoon meeting, taking time after class to come home and ride my bike. I prepare for class and grade when I’m not riding in the afternoons and on weekends. To be perfectly honest, this is what it’s all about — having a job that gives me enough free time to do what I want.

4. You and the Hobgoblin have such a lovely relationship. What’s your secret? Oh, this is a hard one! The truth is I don’t have a secret. Or maybe the real truth is that Hobgoblin is remarkably patient. I think most people who don’t live with me think I’m a nice person, but I’m often not — Hobgoblin (and my mother) could tell you the real truth, if they wanted to. But Hobgoblin and I have a wonderful time riding together and hiking together and reading together. We like to spend our time in the same way. Neither of us are terribly social, so most evenings you’ll find us up in our studies reading and blogging, on occasion watching a movie. I find it interesting that we don’t tend to read the same books — he’s got his, and I’ve got mine, and although most of them share the same shelves, it’s clear which ones belong to whom. But that keeps things interesting, I suppose — we can’t be exactly alike, after all.

5. If you were stranded on a desert island with two historical figures of your choice, who would you take and why? Another hard one! I suppose I could pick people who might be useful on a desert island — people who could help me build a shelter, maybe, or who could hunt for food. But I’d prefer to think of this is a more idyllic desert island, and so I’ll consider who I’d want for company. First, I’d pick Dorothy Wordsworth, I think, who would be wonderful to go on walks with. We’d explore the entire island, and make observations about the landscape the whole way. And then — I’ll stick to my favorite time period — Samuel Johnson. We’d have scintillating conversations with that great talker once we returned to our camp.

That was fun! Below are the directions; let me know in a comment if you’d like me to interview you.

DIRECTIONS FOR THE INTERVIEW MEME

1. Leave a comment saying, “Interview me.”
2. I will respond by emailing you five questions. Please make sure I have your email address.
3. You will update your blog with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment, asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

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Happy Independence Day!

Happy 4th of July to those of you who celebrate it; to those of you who don’t — happy Wednesday. It’s pouring rain right now, and it’s been relatively cool all day, unusually so for July. I’ve spent the day reading, napping, riding my bike (a nice easy ride which I probably shouldn’t have taken since I’m still feeling a bit sick, but I told you I’m bad at laying off the exercise …), and I’ll probably spend the evening comforting Muttboy when the locals set off their fire crackers and he gets scared. The 4th of July is not a good holiday for dogs.

I began reading Roger Shattuck’s book Proust’s Way today; I didn’t intend to begin the book until I finished In Search of Lost Time, but it looked so interesting, I couldn’t resist. LK rightly warned me that the book has spoilers, so I’ve been trying to avoid bits that might give away plot events that occur in the last volume — but, as I’ve said before, I don’t think one really reads Proust for the plot.

The book is quite good so far — it’s got suggestions for how to read the novel, which are coming a bit late for me, but which are interesting anyway, as they explain things like the structure of a typical Proustian sentence and how that structure reinforces the sentence’s meaning. The book has a number of cool charts — ones that explain the main characters, the various love interests, the structure of the novel’s action, and the places the action occurs, among other things. It has a section on Proust’s life, but it’s not a biography — mostly it gives an overview of what the novel’s all about and offers interpretations of its meaning and significance.

I’m pleased to be reading something that will help me think about Proust more deeply and will help me pull my experience of reading him together, even though I’m not quite finished. Reading Shattuck’s book sometimes teaches me new things and sometimes reinforces things I’ve already thought about Proust.

I prefer to read about a book after experiencing the book itself, rather than preparing for reading a book first and then picking it up. Sometimes that means I’m bewildered as I read the primary text and don’t get things I might if I’d prepared first. But I prefer to experience something directly first and then to try to make sense of the experience afterwards by doing the critical reading, if I’m going to do any critical reading at all.

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I’m back …

I’m going to settle down to reading soon because I haven’t done a whole lot of it over the last few days, but I wanted to write just a few words about my trip home first. Hobgoblin and I rode 100 miles over the course of the two full days we were gone, 60 one day and 40 the next; both times we followed a course that took us along the shore of Lake Ontario.  The landscape is beautiful; it felt so different from what I’m used to in Connecticut — the land is flatter and more open, with more farmland and fewer trees so we could see the whole sky and a long way up the road ahead of us.  I always think of myself as a person who loves hills and mountains, but I was surprised to find myself loving the flat, open country.  I haven’t visited the area in summer in a long time, and I found I had forgotten how pretty it is.

But today my legs hurt … the landscape was wonderful, but the wind was not.  We had an easy time riding out, but once we turned to head home, we faced the wind and had a hard time of it.  My average speed dropped two miles an hour at least.  There’s nothing more demoralizing than working super hard just to crawl along at a slow pace.  I’m not used to riding on relatively flat roads either and it felt different; I’m used to coasting down hills now and then, and when I can’t coast and do nothing but pedal for hours and hours I hurt.

But that’s not the only cycling news I have — Hobgoblin and I went to watch a bike race in downtown Rochester on Saturday night and had a fabulous time; I’ve never seen so many spectators and such excitement at a bike race before.  This was a race we considered riding in, until I discovered it would conflict with my brother’s graduation party, so we went to the party and checked out the pro races afterward.  I can’t say I regret not being able to race, though, because the course looked difficult; it had seven or eight corners, including one hairpin turn, and just thinking about riding them at speed terrified me.  We may ride in the race next year, but I’m already nervous about it — cornering is not my strength!  We had so much fun , though, watching the the tail end of the women’s pro race and the full two hours of the men’s; we walked around the course a couple times, analyzing how the riders took the corners, watching them lean over frighteningly far.  Spectators lined the course the whole way around, cheering the riders on; it’s an amazing course, really, because from most places you can see two different sections of it, including two bridges that cross the Genessee River.  If I can get up the nerve, I think I’ll have fun riding on it.

But now I’m off to read … and I’ll be back posting on books soon.

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Gone for the weekend …

I’m going to be out of town for the next few days, traveling to western New York state where my parents live — I have a brother who is graduating from High School this weekend (I’m the oldest child and he’s the youngest, with five other siblings in between), so Hobgoblin and I will attend the graduation ceremony and the graduation party. We’re bringing our bikes along with us to ride on the relatively flat roads along Lake Ontario. What a difference it will be from the never-ending hills of Connecticut!

I don’t think I’ll get a whole lot of reading done on the trip, but of course I’m going to bring along some books. Virginia Woolf is definitely coming along; I’m about halfway through The Voyage Out and enjoying it a lot. As other bloggers have noted, this first novel hints at some of the directions her later fiction would head, although it’s more traditional in form than books like To the Lighthouse. Then I’m bringing along Ali Smith’s The Accidental, which I probably won’t get to, but I want it on hand in case I finish the Woolf.

And then I began a new nonfiction book last night: Adam Sisman’s book Boswell’s Presumptuous Task, about the writing of his Life of Johnson. I’ve read the introduction and first chapter, and it promises to be quite entertaining. It’s got three sections, one giving a brief biography of Boswell, the second — the longest — describing the writing of The Life, and the third discussing its reception.

Here are a couple interesting bits from the introduction:

In his book James Boswell made a heroic attempt to display his friend “as he really was.” He did not conceal his partiality; his reverence, affection, and even love for Johnson are obvious throughout, and an endearing feature of his biography. But neither did he conceal Johnson’s faults: his rudeness, his prejudices, and his temper. Boswell was the first biographer to attempt to tell the whole truth about his subject, to portray his lapses, his blemishes, and his weaknesses as well as his great qualities: an aim we take for granted today, but in Boswell’s time a startling innovation.

Sisman tells how Boswell was mocked for his insistence on filling the biography with everyday details about Johnson — his eating, clothes, behavior, etc. All the things that make the biography fun, in other words, were the things people didn’t seem to get when the book first came out.

Sisman has this to say about the relationship between the two men:

The Life of Johnson can be read as an unending contest between author and subject for posterity. Johnson and Boswell are locked together for all time, in part-struggle, part-embrace. Boswell will forever be known as Johnson’s sidekick, remembered principally because he wrote the life of a greater man; Johnson is immortalized but also imprisoned by the Life, known best as Boswell portrayed him. Each is a creation of the other.

I wonder what they would have thought of this fate, if they could have known.

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Time for reading?

How many books do you think you could read in, say, a year, if you had all the time you wanted to read? I’m thinking about this question right now because I’m on “summer vacation” and am not doing as much reading as I thought I might. I put summer vacation in quotation marks because I don’t want anyone to think I’m doing no work whatsoever — I have work-related writing projects to agonize over and a class to teach beginning very soon. But I do have extra time right now, and what I’m finding is that I read about the same amount as I did when the semester was in full swing and I was busy.

It seems that I read about the same amount year-round, maybe a bit more during the summer, but not as much as I expect. During the school year I look forward to the summer and eagerly anticipate all the books I’ll rip through, but when the time comes, I read just about the same amount as ever, and I spend any extra time I have on … I’m not sure what.

I’m beginning to think that there’s only so much I can read at any one time, only so many hours a day. That’s roughly true — there are always exceptions, like the times I can’t put a book down and will sit with it for hours. But generally, if I sit still with a book for too long I get antsy, and if I spend too many days in a row doing little but reading I get restless.

So — why do I look forward to vacation as a time I’ll get so, so much reading done? I’m not a binge reader, capable of doing enormous amounts of reading all at once. Better to think of myself as a slow and steady reader who can consistently read, say, four or five books a month and that’s it. And why do I wish I didn’t have to work so I could spend more time reading? Because I probably wouldn’t spend all that time reading.  I’d still read 50 or 60 books a year and fill the extra time with something else.

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Books, etc.

So much for celebrating walking — Hobgoblin and I went on a three-hour walk today and about halfway through I could feel one of the muscles in upper back/shoulder area tighten up into an ugly knot, and now I can’t easily move my head. I’ve had trouble with tight muscles and knots and pinched nerves in my upper back for quite a while now. I’m pretty sure this began shortly after my first rather disastrous backpacking trip for which I carried a backpack that was much too heavy and which apparently did a lot of damage.

Funny, as much as I’m loving reading The Walk, it hasn’t yet talked about how much walking can hurt, and yet, much as I love walking, it quite often hurts very badly.

Anyway, just a couple quick notes on books — I finished Rainer Maria Rilke’s Duino Elegies recently and thought they were extraordinarily beautiful. They cover so much it’s hard to describe what they are about, but it seems like they are about everything important — birth, death, angels, lovers, time, beauty … rather than try to describe the book, I should simply give you a couple quotations:

Who has turned us around this way so that we’re always whatever we do
in the posture of someone who is leaving? Like a man
on the final hill that shows him his whole valley
one last time who turns and stands there lingering —
that’s how we live always saying goodbye.

How we squander our sorrows gazing beyond them into the sad
wastes of duration to see if maybe they have a limit.
But they are our winter foliage, our dark evergreens
one of the seasons of our secret year — and not only a season
they are situation, settlement, lair, soil, home.

If you are looking for some great poetry to read, I highly recommend this.

And I’ve begun Virginia Woolf’s The Voyage Out; I’m excited to be reading Woolf again, and so far I’m enjoying it — I was particularly pleased to see Richard and Clarissa Dalloway appear as characters here; I’m curious to learn more about why Woolf used these characters multiple times and how they develop from one novel to another. Fortunately, I have Julia Briggs’s book Virginia Woolf: An Inner Life on hand, which perhaps will explain some of this for me.

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Riding and Hiking

Now is the time when the crazy exercising begins — yay! It’s the time when Hobgoblin and I do day-long hikes and hours-long rides, sometimes for days in a row. I’ve ridden the last four days in a row, including a race today; tomorrow we’re going to hike 14 miles over three mountains (it’s Hobgoblin’s birthday tomorrow!); Tuesday I’m going to race again, and then I hope to ride at least four more times before the end of the week, ideally two of those rides lasting for over four hours. This will be fun.

The race today went pretty well. Hobgoblin and I drove up to Hartford to ride in their criterium; I’d watched races there before, but this is the first time I actually rode on the course. It was a women’s open race, which meant I was riding with women from all categories — which meant it was a fast race. I had no idea how I would do, as the last women’s open race I rode in was last year in my first race ever, which turned out to be a disaster (I got dropped after about two laps).

Mostly I hoped not to embarrass myself, which I most definitely did not; I finished the race with the pack. I got only 30th place out of 42 starters, but the point for me was to finish with the pack, not necessarily at the front of it. I felt pretty good throughout, but going through the corners in the last lap I didn’t have a whole lot of strength left to sprint with — and if you’re nowhere near the front of the pack, it really doesn’t make sense to sprint anyway, since you’d be sprinting for something like 30th place, which doesn’t mean much, and you put yourself in danger of crashing.

What I learned is that I need more practice riding fast through corners; I noticed that I slowed down too much at the corners and began to slip back farther in the pack, and then once I was through the corner, I had to speed up to catch up with everybody else. That takes too much energy. I just don’t have a whole lot of practice cornering; the criterium course in my town doesn’t have difficult corners, so they are new to me. I also need to be a bit more aggressive; I let other people jump in front of me too easily.

So, enjoy your holiday everyone!

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More on books soon …

Your Score: Pure Nerd

86 % Nerd, 4% Geek, 26% Dork

For The Record:

A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia.
A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one.
A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions.

You scored better than half in Nerd, earning you the title of: Pure Nerd.

The times, they are a-changing. It used to be that being exceptionally smart led to being unpopular, which would ultimately lead to picking up all of the traits and tendences associated with the “dork.” No-longer. Being smart isn’t as socially crippling as it once was, and even more so as you get older: eventually being a Pure Nerd will likely be replaced with the following label: Purely Successful.

Congratulations!

THE NERD? GEEK? OR DORK? TEST

Thanks Imani!

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A rambling post

I have all kinds of posts I’d like to write at some point, several on A Sentimental Murder, one on Don Quixote, one on Rilke’s Duino Elegies, but I don’t feel like writing them now. Instead, I feel like rambling. So this will be a rambling post.

This morning, Hobgoblin, Muttboy, and I went on a walk in a local park (something like 1,000 acres in size with lots of forest) and found that our usual trail had been completely devastated by a storm that passed through here last Wednesday. I heard rumors of tornados, although I don’t know if any actually developed, but at the very least it was brief but incredibly powerful; I don’t usually get nervous when storms come through, but this time I was, and I was ready to head down to the basement at any moment. Our neighborhood was fine — we didn’t even lose power — but other neighborhoods near us weren’t so lucky; roads were closed everywhere, trees were down all over the place, and people lost power for days. A trip that usually takes Hobgoblin 30 minutes took him 1 hour 40 minutes because he couldn’t find roads that were open.

So, at the beginning of our walk, we noticed a few trees down, but it didn’t seem that bad until we got to a higher elevation, and there we saw that trees were down everywhere. Everywhere we looked, we saw fallen branches, tree trunks ripped apart, roots pulled up from the ground. We had to pick our way around fallen tree after fallen tree that blocked our path. The path gets used by mountainbikers a lot, but it won’t be rideable for a long time, until somebody spends hours with a chainsaw clearing things out, if it even gets cleared at all. I couldn’t help but wish I’d seen the storm come through — if I could somehow have known I would be safe, I would love to have been there, seeing and hearing what it was like. Walking through the forest was sad, with all those damaged trees, but it was dramatic and exhilarating too.

I attended graduation at my school on Thursday, so now my semester is officially over (although it’s never really over — I’m attending a work-related retreat next week …); I’ve been slipping into summer mode, which means there still is work to be done, but at a slower pace and with lots more time to read. I’ve been devouring Lionel Shriver’s The Post-Birthday World, and today I devoured the second section of my friend’s novel, the one I’m commenting on as she works on revising it. It’s such a pleasure to read without work hanging over my head! As much as I love teaching, I do get tired of always having work to do on the weekends, which means guilt is never far away — the feeling that I should be grading or reading for school or prepping for class. I tempted to make some goals for summer reading, but I’m trying not to, in favor of keeping things more spontaneous. I already have plans to continue with Proust and Cervantes, and probably that’s plan enough.

I’ll end with a question: do you ever have the experience where you decide to read an author and you turn to his or her best work, and you read it and love it, and want to read more, but all that’s left is the work that everybody says is not quite as good, and you’re a bit afraid to try it because it may disappoint you? I was reminded of that problem when I read Ted’s post on Nabokov’s Pnin, which didn’t quite live up to his expectations. I’ve experienced this with Nabokov myself — I adore Pale Fire and Lolita and Speak, Memory, and would happily read more, but, at least as far as what people generally say, I’ve read the best already. This is true for Virginia Woolf as well; after Mrs. Dalloway and To the Lighthouse, will I find The Voyage Out disappointing? Do I really want to spend time with a book that will disappoint me? With an author’s works of lesser reputation? I know reputation isn’t always a reliable way to decide if I will enjoy something or not, but I still feel a lingering hesitation about picking up the lesser-known things.

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Books on novels

I worked hard on my funny tan lines this weekend. As of now, I’m pretty much ruined for tank tops and swimsuits for the rest of the spring and summer, unless I don’t mind looking a little freakish. I’ve now got a tan line on my upper arms and am working on a good one just above my ankle and a little above my knees. Pretty soon, I’ll have one on my wrists from my cycling gloves.

I went on a lovely hike yesterday with Hobgoblin and his students. (By the way, if any of you want to see a picture of us, check out Hobgoblin’s post — I’m the one in the red t-shirt.) I spent most of the hike talking with one of the students about books. Doesn’t that sound like a great way to spend a Saturday?

But I meant to write about an article from The New York Review of Books, “Storms Over the Novel,” by Hermione Lee. She reviews a whole bunch of books on the novel, and the list itself is intriguing as a potential source of reading material. Here’s the list of books she discusses:

The Curtain: An Essay in Seven Parts, by Milan Kundera, translated from the French by Linda Asher

Thirteen Ways of Looking at the Novel, by Jane Smiley

The Things That Matter: What Seven Classic Novels Have to Say About the Stages of Life, by Edward Mendelson

How Novels Work, by John Mullan

How to Read a Novel: A User’s Guide, by John Sutherland

The Novel, Volume 1: History, Geography and Culture, edited by Franco Moretti

The Novel, Volume 2: Forms and Themes, edited by Franco Moretti

Nation & Novel: The English Novel from Its Origins to the Present Day, by Patrick Parrinder

I’ve read the Smiley book, and liked it pretty well, but the others I haven’t yet looked at. I’m intrigued by the Kundera book; I’ve read some good reviews of it, although the one I liked the best was Arthur Phillips’s review from Harper’s magazine where he argued, if I remember correctly, that Kundera doesn’t follow his own prescriptions for what the best novels do, although Phillips admires Kundera’s novels greatly.

The Mendelson book sounds pretty good, although I’m worried about it being a bit preachy; Hermione Lee talks about his “strong, didactic tone,” and this is how she describes Mendelson’s writing:

He makes heartfelt, idiosyncratic, and illuminating diagnoses of seven novels by women writers (Mary Shelley, Charlotte and Emily Brontë, George Eliot, and Virginia Woolf) as humane lessons in how (or how not) to live a moral life.

I like “heartfelt, idiosyncratic, and illuminating,” but I’m unsure about the “humane lessons” on living a moral life part. I do think that novels can teach us things, but I’m not sure that living a moral life is one of them.

The John Mullan book is one of the most interesting here; Mullan is an 18C scholar whose criticism I’ve read and liked, and his book on the novel is about form and structure, which I’d like to know more about. Lee calls the book:

a modest, helpful, and sensible diagnosis of novelistic strategies—beginnings and endings, paratexts and intertexts, first- and third-person narratives, present and past tenses, inadequate and multiple narrators, and the like, drawing on mainly well-known examples from Samuel Richardson to Philip Roth.

I’ll probably never read John Sutherland’s book, however; Lee’s comment that “it ought to have been called How to Talk Knowingly About a Novel Without Actually Reading It” would have turned me off if I hadn’t already heard some negative things about the book. He gives bits of advice such as don’t bother to read every word but skim now and then — which I’m highly unlikely ever to follow. No, this book is not for me.

I am tempted, however, although also a bit frightened, by those Franco Moretti books. I came across Volume 1 in my local library, which surprised me, as I didn’t think my library would have anything so scholarly. It looked jam packed with fascinating information about the novel, but it also looked dense and difficult — not a bad thing at all, but it means I’ll need some energy to tackle it. The volumes are collections of articles by many different authors on the novel’s history and its forms. Each volume is almost $100, so it looks like I won’t be owning my own copy any time soon, unfortunately.

Lee doesn’t say a whole lot about the last book on her list by Patrick Parrinder, but Amazon says this:

What is ‘English’ about the English novel, and how has the idea of the English nation been shaped by the writers of fiction? How do the novel’s profound differences from poetry and drama affect its representation of national consciousness? Nation and Novel sets out to answer these questions by tracing English prose fiction from its late medieval origins through its stories of rogues and criminals, family rebellions and suffering heroines, to the present-day novels of immigration.

Doesn’t that sound fascinating?

Lee writes a bit about her experience as chair of the judges for the Man Booker prize, and she has good things to say about what makes novels novels — there’s a lot in her article that I haven’t mentioned here, so if you are interested, check it out.

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Overwhelmed by books

Maybe it’s just the end of the semester bearing down on me, but I’m feeling overwhelmed in a number of ways.  Overwhelmed by work, yes, but also by too much information, too much information, even, about books.  Do you have the sense, sometimes, that there is simply way too much to learn and keep track of and explore?

For example, I usually take a look at the New York Times Book Review on Sunday mornings, and this past week they had a special issue on fiction in translation.  That’s great, but I flipped through it, recognizing only one of two of the names, and I couldn’t find the energy to focus on any one review to see if I might like the book enough to record the title and author on my to-be-read list.  It’s not that I’m not interested, really; it’s just that I can’t seem to absorb any new names.  I feel badly about this, because I really would like to learn about more authors, especially international ones, but at some point, my mind gets saturated with new information, and I simply can’t take any more in.

Mostly my experiences of reading book reviews and book blogs are positive ones, but at times, I feel myself pushing back against the flood of information coming from these sources. I look at book lists sometimes and I don’t see a familiar name, or I skim a blog post and don’t recognize the title and author the blogger is discussing, and I find myself wanting to run away rather than to find out more.

I don’t mean to sound whiny, and I’m sure at some point this spring or summer, I’ll be back to adding new books to my TBR list every day, practically, but I do think there are times when I need to retreat a little into familiarity.  This probably accounts for my decision to read Gaskell right now; although I’m not all that familiar with her in particular, I’m very familiar with the kind of novel she writes and her time period.  Victorian novels are a favorite kind of comfort read for me.

Perhaps I should save that special section on fiction in translation, though, for that time I’m itching for something new.

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Blog notice and bookish distractions

Update: The Hobgoblin’s father passed away this morning.  The Hobgoblin is doing okay, but please do keep him in your thoughts.

Unfortunately, things are not looking good for the Hobgoblin’s father, so the Hobgoblin will be flying to Houston tomorrow to visit him and will stay through much of the week. I’m planning to write a bookish post now because it’ll distract me nicely for a little while, but I’m not sure how much I’ll be able to post in the coming days. For those of you who got to know the Hobgoblin through his blog, keep him in your thoughts this week if you would — I’m sure he’d appreciate it.

So, first let me say that I’m 2/3 of the way through Ishiguro’s Never Let Me Go and I’m loving it. I’ll write more about it when I’ve finished, but for now I just want to say it’s such a pleasure to read — pleasurable in a disturbing way, yes, but pleasurable nonetheless.

But what I really wanted to write about was having finished listening to Jacqueline Winspear’s Maisie Dobbs on audio. This is a series with four books in it so far, I believe; I listened to the third one a while back (it was what was available on the library shelf at the time) and this time I went back to the first one. I’ve liked them well enough to want to find the second and fourth books in the series and listen to those too. They make perfect audiobooks, in my opinion, since they are good stories and fairly easy to follow so I don’t have to concentrate too, too hard to follow the story as I’m driving.

The books are labeled mysteries, but they don’t strike me as typical of the genre — although I don’t know the genre very well. But the interest in them, for me at least, has more to do with the main character and the time period, World War I and afterward, rather than the mystery Maisie has to solve, which, in the first novel, gets solved fairly early and then the focus shifts elsewhere.

This is really the story of how Maisie grew up and how she became a “psychologist and investigator,” as her office door proclaims. Her story strikes me as perhaps not quite believable, but it’s an appealing story anyway. She is the daughter of a working-class father who sells vegetables for a living; after her mother dies, her father places her into service and shortly thereafter the family she now works for discovers her intelligence and her interest in reading. They provide her with an education, which eventually allows her to shift from being a personal maid to focusing solely on her studies. She attends university, and then World War I begins. Maisie serves as a nurse during the war, seeing much suffering that has left her with many painful memories.

But this story is actually sandwiched between sections that tell about Maisie’s life after the war where she is establishing her business investigating cases often of a personal nature — her first case begins as an investigation into a possible marital infidelity. This investigation soon takes Maisie mentally back into the war period as she investigates a series of mysterious suicides amongst war veterans. Along the way to solving her case, she must face her own personal history and the losses she suffered in the war.

Maisie is an appealing character: smart, talented, ambitious, and haunted by the past. She is, perhaps, too good to be true, but I’m willing to forgive that. And the material about the war is very interesting; Winspear gives a lot of detail about what it was like to be a nurse in France, the training that Maisie went through and what her actual work was like at the front. And what happens after the war is fascinating too, the way the class structure that was so rigid before the war (although it did bend enough to allow Maisie to rise from her working-class origins) begins to crumble.

So if you’re looking for an enjoyable read (or listen) with a historical focus, I think you might like this series.

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On reading a friend’s novel

I’m reading a good friend’s novel-in-progress. She’s sent me the first part, about 100 pages, to read and give feedback on, and I’m finding it such a pleasure to do. Now, admittedly, reading and giving feedback on somebody’s novel is the kind of thing that makes me nervous. I’m not worried about not liking the book, at least in this case — I know this friend’s writing well enough to know that I’ll like it — but I do worry about getting it wrong, somehow, missing something important, or providing feedback that doesn’t make sense or isn’t helpful. Giving this kind of feedback is really kind of a test of one’s reading skills, not to mention friendship-negotiating skills — I need to make sure I’m just as clear about what I like as I am about what I think needs work.

But as I read, I feel more confident about it. I’m finding things to say — confusing spots, or places the transitions aren’t clear — but mostly I’m enjoying it and appreciating what a good novel it is. There’s a reason this author and I are good friends, after all, and it’s partly because we often like the same kinds of books, the same ideas and themes, the same kind of narrative voice. The novel is a consciousness-driven one; not much takes place, at least so far, in terms of plot, but the narrator follows the characters’ thoughts in great detail, and in the 100 pages I’ve read so far, I’ve learned a ton about the relationships amongst the characters, their ways of thinking, their worries and preoccupations.

I only know the first 100 pages, but so far the story is about a family, all the members of which are unhappy with one another for various reasons. It takes place entirely in their house and in the yard outside it. This can feel claustrophobic at times, which is very much the point — the novel seems to be about the give-and-take of family life and how people can come to feel trapped by it.

The novel is partly autobiographical, too, so I have the fun of reading it and enjoying it plus recognizing the characters and comparing them to their real-life counterparts. Mostly, though, in addition to enjoying it as a work of art, I like learning something about my friend — not the autobiographical details but the shape and meaning she’s given to them.

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The weekend: hiking and racing

Let’s just say I’ve got some sore muscles right now. First the hike — the Hobgoblin and I are hoping to go on a backpacking trip this summer (if we can fit it in), and so we’re trying to take long hikes now and then to get in shape for it. If you’re thinking that we’re probably already in good shape because of all the riding we do, you’re wrong — climbing up mountains all day requires its own special set of muscles.

So yesterday we drove up north to the Appalachian Trail, taking two cars to park at each end of our hike, and then we walked from one car to the other. I like doing an end-to-end hike when I can, rather than an out-and-back hike where we have to backtrack the whole way; it’s much more satisfying to end someplace new, to be heading in one direction only and to feel like we’re making progress of a sort, covering some ground. We chose an 11-mile hike over a part of the trail that we know very well — in fact, we know the entire trail in Connecticut very well — and took about 5 hours to hike it, including some long breaks.

It was a great day for a hike, sunny and cool when we started, but warming up eventually. We started the hike just outside a small, very New England-ish town; the trail runs by a very posh prep school at the beginning, and then after climbing a small mountain (probably a large hill), we could see the church steeple and could measure our progress by it as we walked along a ridgeline. The trail went over some rolling hills before plunging down to a river — and I do mean plunging; we headed down St. John’s Ledges, a series of boulders and rock steps that take you down a cliff, requiring some scrambling along the way. Some snow still lingered there, and in places I had to work hard to keep from slipping.

Then the trail follows the river for 5 or so miles and is mostly flat here, until it heads up another hill, taking you to a campsite about halfway up; we’ve camped here before, and it’s a nice site with a bit of a view. It used to have a swing, but one of the trees holding it up fell over and now the swing just sits on the ground. After climbing a bit farther, the trail immediately starts heading downhill steeply to the road that took us to another New England town. This town doesn’t have much in it, but it does have a very good deli, so we rested here and ate sandwiches and candy bars.

All that was great, lots of fun, but when we got home, I noticed just how stiff and sore my muscles were. I’m not sure why I thought it would be a good idea to go on a long hike on Saturday and race on Sunday. In fact, I’m always underestimating just now hard hiking can be. It’s just walking, right? What can be so difficult? But it IS difficult, as I discovered last year when we tried to hike something like 50 miles in three days, and I hurt like you wouldn’t believe at the end of it. I’m trying to decide if I’m experiencing more pain now that I’m older (I’m well into my 30s now, after all), or if I tolerate the pain less well, or if I just have a bad memory of what pain I’ve experienced in the past. What keeps me going on backpacking trips again and again, after all, is the fact that I so easily forget just how much the last trip hurt.

So this morning I got up early to ride my race and wasn’t feeling well at all; I felt sluggish and draggy and sore. I’m usually draggy in the morning, and I warm up for the races week after week wanting nothing more than to crawl back into bed. It didn’t help this morning that the temperature was about 31 degrees. But my pride and the fact that I’ve paid in advance to ride in this race and the fact that my teammates would wonder where I was if I didn’t show up kept me going, although I did so complainingly. I did a couple warm-up laps telling everybody I saw just how tired I felt.

I’m not proud of this, actually — it’s a highly annoying habit I and many other people have, to complain about how badly we feel so we won’t feel bad if we don’t do well in the race. It’s setting up an excuse, so that when we fail we have an explanation other than “I’m not very good.” But it really does help me, to complain like this — I’m not looking for an excuse for failure so much as I’m letting myself take it easy, giving myself some room to back off the intensity of a race a bit. If I give myself room like this, I relax, and then I’m more likely to ride better. I’m happier working hard if I don’t have to work hard, if that makes any sense.

Anyway, once the race got going, I forgot my soreness and fatigue and rode pretty hard. The race started off slowly, but then people began attacking off the front and the pace sped up. As the race went on, I noticed how much I was hanging out in the back of the pack and tried to move up toward the front, to where the riding is easier. I had no trouble staying with the pack until the very last lap; at the beginning of that lap the front of the pack started speeding up, and I found myself behind someone unable to keep up and had to go around and work hard to stay with the group. I chased that group pretty much the entire last lap; going around the corner to the backstretch, I felt like I had nothing left.

But I stayed with the group, hanging on to the very back, until the end of the race; along the way I must have left quite a few people behind me because I ended up getting 15th place. For me this was a good result, close to last week’s 14th. I’m starting to get used to finishing with the pack and to seeing my name on the results sheet, and I’m liking it a lot.

But now my muscles hurt. It hurts to walk up and down stairs, and it hurts to sit down in my chair and to stand back up again. Sometimes I hurt even when I’m not moving at all.  I should feel better tomorrow though, and maybe by the weekend I’ll have forgotten how hard it is to do a long hike and I’ll be ready for another one.

Back to books tomorrow…

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My trip to NYC

Okay, so I wrote yesterday that I spent the day in Manhattan with Emily and others; what we were doing was going on a book group field trip to the Tenement Museum on the Lower East side. This book group likes to read books that have some local connection and then visit the place. We read (or were supposed to read) two books, Triangle, about a fire at the Triangle Shirtwaist Factory in 1911 where 146 workers, mostly immigrant women, died, and Bread Givers by Anzia Yezierska, a novel about an immigrant girl growing up in the NYC tenements. I’d read Bread Givers a few years ago for a class, but didn’t have a chance to read Triangle.

The museum consists of actual tenements that tour guides will take you through; we saw two apartments, both of them tiny. Each apartment consisted of a living room, a kitchen, and a bedroom, all of them very small, and each apartment housed a family with five or so children. One of them was also converted into a garment shop during the day, when several women would come in and piece together dresses. The building was dark and claustrophobic; in some rooms electric lights had been installed, but in others they had only gas lights to give us the sense of the gloom people lived in until electric lights became available. I spent the tour trying to imagine what it would be like to live in these conditions; what’s most memorable about it is how cramped the housing was and how impossible it would have been ever to be alone. As someone who values privacy very highly, I simply can’t comprehend what it would be like to have none. This is an important theme in Bread Givers, which describes the crowding in the tenements and the streets and the main character’s striving to find some space for herself — both physically and mentally.

There’s a little bookshop across the street from the museum, and although I didn’t buy anything (I really don’t need it!), I was tempted by its collection of books about NYC.

After the tour, we went on a trek to find lunch; Emily and her husband Bob knew of a very authentic, neighborhood Chinese place where lots of good food could be had for very cheap. This was one of the nicest parts of the day as we sat around for what must have been a couple of hours talking — a bit about the books, but as not everyone had completed the reading (in fact, I don’t think anybody had completed the reading), we wandered off into other topics. Is there anything nicer than sitting around for a couple hours with a group of smart, friendly people, talking about books and about life? In that moment, at least, there wasn’t.

I often say that I should spend more time in NYC, although when the weekend comes and I have the chance to go, I begin to feel lazy. The city is close enough to be easily accessible for day trips, although far enough for the trip to take up most of the day. But there is so much to see …

If you’re in the city and have the time, I do recommend the Tenement Museum tour, and if you’re interested in the area and in immigrant histories, you will probably like Bread Givers.

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My day

030726419×01_aa240_sclzzzzzzz_v65791194_.jpgToday is my birthday (I feel strange drawing attention to that, because I don’t generally draw attention to myself, which is weird … because I blog … but I’m mentioning it because I want to talk about my gifts), and the Hobgoblin gave me three news books: The Emperor’s Children by Claire Messud, Special Topics in Calamity Physics by Marisha Pessl, and Calvin Trillin’s About Alice. I’m excited about the two novels both because they look good and because I’m in need of some contemporary fiction right now. I’m still reeling from The Street of Crocodiles (more on that later) and want something likely to feel a little more familiar. And I’m excited about the Trillin book because I’ve heard wonderful things about it, and I read an excerpt of it in the New Yorker a while back that was really beautiful.

The Hobgoblin also got me some cycling tank tops (special because they have pockets in the back) and a sweater. We went out to a fancy restaurant last night to celebrate, which is standard for us — we agree that everything should be celebrated with a trip to a fancy restaurant, preferably one we haven’t been to before. Oh, and a good friend of mine got me the Jane Austen action figure, which I’m really excited about — it comes complete with writing desk and a quill pen, and the box has this wonderful quotation on it: “For what do we live, but to make sport for our neighbours, and laugh at them in our turn?”

Today we went on a group bike ride, which turned out to be wonderful. It was three hours, with about a dozen people, and I was happy with it because for the most part everybody kept a reasonable pace — not too fast — so I worked hard but didn’t kill myself trying to keep up with the others. It was a beautiful day, upper 30s and so warm enough to be comfortable (especially with my toe warmers!), clear, and sunny. The only problem was that the roads were wet, and riding on wet roads with a group can be a bit gross because the tires of the person in front of me spray water and road grit directly at my face. I know the taste of dirty road water all too well. But otherwise, I couldn’t have asked for a better ride.

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So Long a Letter and other things

1248728.gifI began classes today, and while I won’t be really busy for a couple weeks when the first sets of papers come in, I’m still feeling a bit in shock — there’s a lot of new stuff to take in, new colleagues, new students, a new campus, a new daily and weekly pattern to life. It’s hard for me to settle down and read in these circumstances. And the thing is, I remember clearly writing this exact same stuff last fall, when I started my last new job. I’m ready for some quiet, some peace, some regularity — I’m ready for my life to be boring!

Anyway, I finished Mariama Ba’s novel So Long a Letter last weekend. I don’t feel like I gave this book a fair reading; in other circumstances I might have liked it more, but as it was, I never quite settled into a groove with it. You know how that is, when you orient yourself to a book and get absorbed and find yourself thinking about it throughout the day when you’re doing other things? My reading wasn’t like that — it was halting and distracted, and impatient at times.

But about the book itself — it’s about a woman in Senegal whose husband has just died, and she tells the story of their marriage, including the pain she experienced when her husband took a second wife. It’s a novel about how harsh marriage can be toward women in a polygamous culture, but also about how women are beginning to find independence and freedom and to assert their own desires, difficult and painful as the process may be.

The novel is made up of letters the main character Ramatoulaye writes to a friend, and it’s her voice that is the most memorable. She writes to try to make sense of her life, and as she does so her voice is alternately angry and at peace, accusatory and accepting, uncertain and full of conviction. It’s when I realized that Ramatoulaye is struggling to make sense of rapid cultural changes — that she doesn’t always know how to respond to women’s new-found sexual freedom, for example — that the novel began to come together a bit more for me. She’s not meant to be an infallible guide, an authoritative voice to tell people what to think; rather, she’s bewildered at times. Alongside her powerful voice speaking to the pain of being a forsaken wife is another voice that wonders what all the changes mean.

Here is Ramatoulaye thinking about ways she may have, in her own estimation, failed her husband:

I am trying to pinpoint any weakness in the way I conducted myself. My social life may have been stormy and perhaps injured Modou’s trade union career. Can a man, deceived and flouted by his family, impose himself on others? Can a man whose wife does not do her job well honestly demand a fair reward for labour? Aggression and condescension in a woman arouse contempt and hatred for her husband. If she is gracious, even without appealing to any ideology, she can summon support for any action. In a word, a man’s success depends on feminine support.

This sounds very old-fashioned and traditional — a wife’s role is to further her husband’s career and be his support. But two pages later, recounting a conversation with an unwanted suitor who shows up after her husband’s death, she says this:

“…You forget that I have a heart, a mind, that I am not an object to be passed from hand to hand. You don’t know what marriage means to me: it is an act of faith of love, the total surrender of oneself to the person one has chose and who has chosen you.” ( I emphasized the word “chosen”.)

“What of your wives, Tamsir? Your income can meet neither their needs nor those of your numerous children. To help you out with your financial obligations, one of your wives dyes, another sells fruit, the third untiringly turns the hand of her sewing machine. You, the revered lord, you take it easy, obeyed at the crook of a finger. I shall never be the one to complete your collection. My house shall never be for you the coveted oasis; no extra burden; my “turn” every day, clealiness and luxury, abundance and calm! No, Tamsir!”

I wish I could have done this novel more justice, but I am glad I read it (my first book in the Reading Across Borders challenge), and it’s the contradictions and struggles shown in those two quotations that I most liked about this book.

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The gender meme

Cross-posted at What We Said

It’s about time that I do Mandarine’s meme; it’s been on my mind for quite a while, but I haven’t been entirely sure I’d have answers to all the categories — I’m still not sure. But I’ve had a couple of conversations with the Hobgoblin lately about some stuff related to gender, specifically, about hearing a LOT of talk at parties and around work about home decoration and repair, a topic that provokes eye-rolling and sighs of boredom from me, and then makes me feel inadequate for not caring a whole lot what my house looks like. I mean, I’m supposed to, aren’t I? Caring about home decoration is part of being a good American consumer and part of being acceptably feminine, isn’t it? Anyway, here’s my attempt:

  • Three things you do that women usually do:
    1. Shave my legs (although I prefer to think I do this because I’m a cyclist, not because I’m a woman. Since, as a cyclist, the Hobgoblin shaves his legs, wouldn’t it be funny if I didn’t? We’d really be messing with gender stereotypes then);
    2. Try to take care of other people’s emotional needs;
    3. Enjoy nice long conversations about feelings.
  • Three things you do that men usually do:
    1. Compete in athletic events;
    2. Feel uncomfortable and out of place in a kitchen;
    3. Pride myself on my big muscles.
  • Three things you do that women usually don’t do:
    1. Let the dishes pile up in the sink without feeling guilty;
    2. Eat a ton without feeling self-conscious about it;
    3. Be willing to get dirty and sweaty on a backpacking trip without thinking about it too much.
  • Three things you do that men usually don’t do:
    1. Cry regularly.
    2. Discuss my feelings openly;
    3. Talk on the phone for lengthy periods.
  • Three things you don’t do that women usually do:
    1. Wear makeup;
    2. Care what my house looks like;
    3. Wear skirts (I will if I have to …).
  • Three things you don’t do that men usually do:
    1. Know anything about car maintenance or repair;
    2. Watch sports on television;
    3. Feel at home in hardware stores.
  • Three things you don’t do that women usually don’t do:
    1. Show my temper in public;
    2. Disagree sharply and assertively with others;
    3. Show competitiveness.
  • Three things you don’t do that men usually don’t do:
    1. Enjoy shopping;
    2. Spend hours on grooming;
    3. Know domestic secrets like fancy ways of removing stains from clothing.

There, I answered everything. That’s an interesting exercise because I can’t help but draw on stereotypes as I answer the questions, but, of course, I’m talking about ways I undermine them too.

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New year, new blog, new posting policy

As you may have noticed, I’ve been posting every day, just about, since I began blogging, with some exceptions for vacations, and I’ve been very happy doing it. There’s great pleasure to be had in producing something every day and in discovering that I can come up with ideas again and again and again and again.

But now I think it may be time for a change. I thought I’d back off from posting every day when I got so busy I couldn’t handle it anymore, but that’s not the case; in fact right now I have plenty of time. But I think I’d like to see what it’s like to post, say 4 or 5 or 6 times a week when I feel most inspired, instead of posting every day and making the inspiration happen.

It interests me that I feel compelled to make an announcement out of this — this is my own blog, after all, and I can make changes without making a big deal out of it. But I’m an annoyingly conscientious and obsessive kind of person, and I feel like if I have been following a schedule and people know I follow a schedule, then if I’m going to change that schedule, I ought to make that clear. The more positive interpretation here is that blogging is about community, and so what I’m doing is acknowledging that community and clarifying the nature of my participation in it. I’m acknowledging that there might be people out there who will notice a change and wonder about it.

Anyway — one of the reasons I’m making this change now is that I’m too tired to write a regular post, which is what I’d normally be doing at this time. Having a more flexible posting schedule gives me an out for times like this.

I’m so tired because the Hobgoblin, Muttboy, and I went on a 6-hour hike today. We drove up to the Appalachian Trail at the Connecticut/Massachusetts border and climbed two mountains there and walked through one beautiful ravine. It was a perfect day for a hike — mid-40s and sunny, and also very windy so that I was grateful to be hiking and not on my bike fighting against a headwind or in danger of getting knocked over by a particularly strong gust.

During the beginning and middle of long hikes like this one, I begin to daydream about backpacking and I plan our next trip — I’m hoping we can do a long one in Vermont this coming summer. But by the end of the hike, I’ve stopped daydreaming about backpacking and I begin to notice how much my legs and feet hurt and that I’ve got a blister on my toe, and I begin to feel grateful that I’m heading to my car, and from there to get Chinese take-out, and then home to a hot shower and a cozy bed. And that’s exactly how I feel about backpacking — enchanted by the possibility one moment and secretly grateful I’m not doing it the next.

So, I’m not sure how much things will change around here, and I may end up posting every day again because I will have discovered that’s what I prefer, but for now, I’ll post often, just not quite so diligently.

And now for some pictures from the hike:

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